Rainbow

Have you ever heard of this song? - Cai Hong (Rainbow) by Alex To?
It's a simple sweet acoustic one and whenever I listened to it, I pictured Jason singing it on the stage on our wedding day to me.
And of cos' that is one of the many. Jason just can't sing lately or have I lost the patience to listen?More of the latter, I feel. Bad girlfriend. =/

Everyone would have someone(s) well hidden back in their memories. Behind the gates of emotions and behind all time. It may not even be someone you think of romantically but you just hide them away cos' they are no longer with you or maybe you can't be with them.

I have a few of those someones and some, I would never wanna forget.
Some just bring regret and some, fear.
Some just bring longing and some, undesired consequences.

Today I met a new face but reminded me of one of those someones that I hid away from the present.
I didn't think of it initially but slowly as the memories unsealed, the pain comes crawling in.
I dun wanna give names and I dun wanna say too much. For all you know, you may be thinking of someone else whom I'm not referring to.And most of all, I dun want anyone to think or read too much.

I just wanna talk about that someone with no strings attached.

I know one of those reasons that I am hiding that someone is because I never have a chance to do more than I should. Stupidly and foolishly and maybe too it's a matter of fate & choice.
Maybe I owed that someone last life and I was given a chance back to grief myself now.
I am the type that think and feel alot without actions,much.
I am shy and I am not pro-active as some might deem the other way round.

Time passed and somethings just can't the same anymore. You would hate to have someone like them to be in contact of your present life and would dread as you wish at the same time.

I am sober in my head and I know who and what matters to me now.
But still memories are precious to me. I cant give them up and I cant hate for having them.
Though the emotions are raw and untasteful at times but I care too much to abandon any.

Rainbow...7 colours? Someday I belived, I would understand them all.